life is such a piece of shit isant it
its just a game and god is just fucking up with us making the levels harder as we play on
its contradicting isant it when the one thing u work so hard in life to avoid happens to you
you forego all the pleasure and take all the pain
and it still happens to you
its like never smoking before in your life
and maybe even avoid walking along roads and stuff
and then one day you go to the doctor and find out you have lung cancer
stupid isant it
you feel like you wasted so much and for what?
for nothing
yes life is just a game
its just a game where you can never find what youre looking for
and find it when you dont need it anymore
my theory was always
god will give me cancer if he wills it
so why not smoke
god will kill me if he wills it
so why not live life on the edge
and the one thing i made sure not to push it
i just had to get it right
wheres the sense in that
someone tell me please
because it contradicts all the laws ever written
maybe the game really works that way
you dont get stds from sex
you just get it if god wills it
you dont get liver failure from drinking
you just get it if god wills it

i don't know about you but im getting really sick of this game.
maybe its about time to just give up and stop playing