fuck i just realised that friendster makes me depressed.
its like
i go there and just view a few random old friends
then i think to myself.
fuck andrew
you used to mess around with that
who the fuck am i messing around with now

these memories that keep me awake at night
when will they let me rest.

i was such a bastard.
i think i need some closure

yes we are all just wasting our lives away.
i am feeling so fucked up right now.
mainly because reality really just hit me real hard
and it kinda hurts

i feel enlightened in a pretty fucked up way