shes happy now
thats what matters






am i lying to myself

austin went into hospital this morning.
he got chopped up pretty bad by 3 guys
doc says his left arm may be dead.
singapore is such an unsafe place to live in
you guys just dun know.

what are dreams.
ive been having a hell lot lately.
and i really mean i hell lot.
somehow they feel damn real.
and.
i dun think theyre just your imagination running overtime.
maybe theyre like figments of yourself in another world.
or something like that.
ya i know it sounds stupid but who knows.
i had a dream today which ended with me dying.
jumped off a building.
no it wasn suicide.
but it was freaking real
and i had to hold my breath when i was falling.
u know the feeling when youre riding a rollar coaster.
and you hold your breath when you go down.
but whats interesting is that when i landed.
it was like pop. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
you know the sound you get when you get audio feedback
and then it was just blank,
i know i was still dreaming cos it was like dreams where i was seeing things.
but it was just black and blank.
and it remained that way with the eeeeeeeeeeee sound till i woke up.
hmmmn.
maybe i died in another life or something.